Okay, so I’m trying to be open about my life on here so that I can some sort of outlet and so I can show others that other people might be in the same boat as them.
Hi, I’m Ashley and I have Major Depressive Disorder or Depression.
The Friday before last, I attempted suicide. I was in a really bad place and I didn’t see an out for my situation. I’m in a bad financial situation, my workplace was toxic, I was bottling my feelings up inside, and I’m very worried and depressed about my school situation.
I’ve suffered from depression since I was 12 years old. I’ve had repeated depressive episodes that led to me becoming so sick from psuedoseizures that I had to be homebound for most of my junior year of high school. My seizures have since stopped and only come back when I’m incredibly emotionally overwhelmed. I was hospitalized once before because of suicidal thoughts and it was an awful experience.
As some of you may know, when you attempt suicide, have self-harmful thoughts, or just harmful thoughts and the police are notified, you are then Baker Act’ed. You have to be observed in a psychiatric facility or behavioral center for 72 hours. I was hospitalized from that Friday night to the following Tuesday. While I will admit that if I hadn’t gone to the behavioral center then I would’ve gotten worse, I do still think that behavioral units are very dehumanizing and sort of toxic in their own way. Although there’s no right way to keep people from things that they could hurt themselves or others with and keep a ‘nice’ environment. Although I will say that if you or someone you know is feeling suicidal, the best place to go is a place where you can get help and they can help you not hurt yourself.
All in all, the experience is not one that I would like to repeat and I’m now on a new antidepressant and have been using my familial support system to get back on my feet. I just started class and things seem to be looking up for me.
If anyone has any questions about my experience or about my experience having depression or just looking for someone to talk to who’s going through the same thing, my askbox is always open.
NO DONT THINK LIKE THIS!!underwildwood organizationxiiiI feel like poopie for JUST finding this but let me tell you that we all agreed that we had a lot of fun and you shouldn’t put yourself down like that D: the weather was crappy and I feel like it threw all of us off, but I personally had a wonderful time with you guys
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But chin up sweetie! You got this :D and even if this message is a long time coming please remember than you still have so much ahead of you to learn and discover.
Also I would put on my Scott McCall on for you anytime because I love sharing that with fellow fans
Ah! I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to make this a big deal! Y’all don’t have to feel bad!
but have you considered:
- strong females who don’t denounce femininity or being girly
- strong females who are “like every other girl” bc why the hell not girls are rad
- strong females who tear down the culture of girls hating on other girls
- strong females who are proud to be feminists
- strong females who support and acknowledge trans women
- strong females who understand that being strong isn’t synonymous with manly or with “acting like a man”